mew?

I might as well make you aware that I'm here for you. You've got my phone number(I replied to that other entry asking for phone numbers on my birthday), my MSN name, obviously my LJ, etc. I've been trying to reach out, be friendly, say hello. You have to be the one to reach back to fix this thing.

I'm still your friend, regardless of the past. That is part of being a friend to someone. You just have to make the choice and decide how much of a friend you will be back to me (even though I have been your friend the entire time). I have to admit you've hurt my feelings by ignoring me when I came over, on my birthday, etc. Silence is the worst thing you can do to me.

But I trust you, I know now that you took it wrong, even though I trusted you as a friend to be able to pass on what I felt, but instead you felt it was something personal from me against you (even though that is absolutely not what I intended). If there is something you don't want me to do. Tell me, I'll certainly try not to do it again, but if you don't say anything, I will never know. But don't let this ruin your life! Let it go!

My secondary advice is don't allow history repeat itself. You have the power to let things go, and to release yourself from these feelings. Try instead to think about and focus on positive things, good times (such as being with friends!). The way I solve problems is by learning from them, there is often NOTHING we can do about the past other than use it to learn from. I assure myself I won't let it happen again, then I try and forget about it and put it behind me. The choices made with the past mistakes in mind often turn out to be the best choices because I have that wisdom from my life experiences to draw from. I don't forget about it enough where I end up doing it again, but I let it serve as a reminder that I want to become a better person because of it, and I strive to be above it.

You can be a better person if you let this go. Send me a text message. This is my hand reaching out to you. Reach back.