I hate feeling like just some useless nowhere kid like I do right now... I just want to be useful for once. And stop being the one who has to keep on taking, and taking, from others.

When will I be able to pull myself from this hole? I'm annoyed at promises of jobs that lead just to more frustration and misery, and make me look at the fact that I am nothing.

I don't know... I really wish I had my mate right now...

Nevermind, emo bitch fest is over now

P.S. - I want to pull my hair out for how stupid/stubborn I am